Semalam: Geram, hampa, sedih, gembira~

Yesterday, I was in mixed feeling. My day started at work as usual (org lain sibuk beraya lagi).
Let me start with this.

Geram
I was on my way to office and stopped at my favy's stall to buy nasi lemak. There were this fat couple beli makanan. Too bad nasi lemak all sold out! Ye la only this stall started back his biz after raya. The rest still in raya mode.

There were few kuihs left and fried kueytiau. The abg nasi lemak was tapauing for the fat couple. There were already few packs of kueytiau for them and ade sikit la still left in the container.
I was waiting patiently, coz I tot the fat guy will leave some for me. Then, the abg nasi lemak asked the guy.

Abg nasi lemak: Cukup kueytiau nye? (Still left some.)

The fat guy looked at me (muka kerek) then said

Fat guy: Habiskan semua la (smbil senyum sinis)
The fat guy's wife: Cukup la tu bang, kan dah byk tu? (while made this pity face at me)
Fat guy: Ala takpe.. kang boleh repeat.

I was like...wat??? Asshole.. upss seriously.. tade langsung ke considerations ko.. dah la gemok..seinci pun tak susut posa ke bang? The fat couple were riding a motor with small kid infront. Nak naik motor pun berhimpit2 coz tak muat!!

I have seen a lot of ignorant MALAY ppl like this.

Hampa
Coz tak dapat tapau anything.

Sedih
Sampai office, I pun mula la layan blues, sedih bagai. Dah le org lain cuti lagi. My lunch buddies all tak balik lagi. So mcm pelik nk pegi sorg2 makan.Dan dan perut lapar mengorek.

Dgn byk kerja lagi.. haih..(1000kali mengeluh)

Gembira
And then suddenly, my twin sis texted me asking whether I'm free or not during lunch time.
I was not hoping so much coz she was all the way from Kepong and she still on leave. Takkan nk kacau.

But then, she said she wanted to have lunch with me at Cyberjaya.

Alhamdulillah. :)

Gigih dia berGPS nk cari my office.

We had our lunch at Thai Restaurant here. We were talking non stop. Sempat la dia pegi flea market yg tak seberapa tu. :)

Thanks a lot sis. :)

Balik rumah, bertambah2 happy, mr hubs gave me duit raya!! Tak pernah2 dapat. I takde la mengharap coz he already give (still giving) everything.

Saje la on the way back to KL, I saje2 usik dia nk duit raya. And tell him ade blogger tu tiap tahun dpt duit raya from hubby and her mil bagai..

He replied, "Kan dah bagi perfume raya?" -_- (maknanya jgn harap nk dapat.)

Tiba2 smlm hulur duit tak bersampul raya. Of coz la saya happy and syukur sgt2. Thanks sayang. :)

My house, my heaven..

Hello peeps.. Selamat Hari Raya to all... How's your celebration? Mesti meriah. Tumpang happy tgk member2 upload gambar2 raya kt FB. Jealous pun ade, coz my Hari Raya was not really happy as you all. Tapi bersyukur dgn apa yg ade. One of my friend lagi sedih. Mak dia meninggal malam raya. Takleh imagine mcm mana perasaan dia. Sbb I dah rase apa yg dia rase.

My celebration was so so. Takde baju raya. Beli few bajus for Faruq je. Farissa punye baju, my siblings yg beli. Beraya as yatim piatu mmg sedih. Tambah2 Farissa tak sihat.

Nanti saya story next entry la. Penat coz dah start kerja since last Monday, tapi tak sempat nk update blog ke apa.. coz bz.. haih. Orang lain seronok2 beraya lagi. Isk...

This is the house where I grew up. Dapat stay sehari pun dah rasa happy sgt2. Terasa macam arwah Mak dgn Abah ade kt sini. Rindu kat mereka. :(

Takde mood nak raya.. :(

Salam Aidilfitri to all. :( Sedih la raya tahun nie. Mak dah takde. Mmg kalau boleh taknak raya langsung.

Eventho esok raya, satu apa pun tak kemas lagi coz Farissa tak sihat. Demam, batuk2 teruk, selsema. Meragam 24jam. Kalau tidur pun kejap2 je. Dah tiga kali kena gas kt klinik but still tadi doctor advice us not to travel anywhere. Meaning, takleh balik mana2. I mcm okey je since mmg takde mood langsung nk raya, or berjumpa2 orang nie. Tapi mr hubs agak excited la jugak. Siap order kuih raya bagai. Masa mak ade lagi, takde plak dia excited mcm nie. :(

Depress la dia coz Farissa tak baik2 lagi. Nak bagi ubat punya la siksa. Skang tambah lagi satu. Cirit birit plak! Sian dia. Susu pun takmo. Doctor advice suh tukar Isomil. Langsung dia takmo. Susu lama dia pun dia takmo dah. :(

Hari nie dapat bagi dia makan nestum sikit dgn air kosong je. Badan dia pun macam panas balik. :( Kesian dia. I pun mcm tak berapa sihat. Tapi tak berani nk makan ubat. Coz nanti ngantuk sape nk jaga Farissa. So, tahan jek la. :(

I plak dh period smlm. Tak dpt nk sembahyang raya and baca yaasin kt kubur mak dgn abah. :( Sedihnya. Terus rasa malas nk balik Muar. Tak larat nk ngadap jam, segala. Dah tentu Farissa tak selesa pindah2 rumah nanti. Haih. :(

Kenapa la nasib sentiasa malang. Dah tade mak pun tade sape pun nk paham.

Ya Allah, sembuhkan la Farissa. Tak sanggup nk tgk dia sakit mcm nie. Amin. :(

Sedih

Tahun nie memang takde mood nk beraya. Mak baru sangat meninggal. Kalau boleh, taknak raya langsung. Orang lain, mak meninggal, boleh je kawin dalam tahun yang sama. But not me. Makin nk raya, makin sedih, makin sayu. Lagi2 nak balik sebelah sana. Langsung takde mood. Rasa nk spend Raya kat rumah sendiri. Lagi selesa.

Last night after buka puasa at Angah's place, balik tu terus bawak Farissa gi klinik. Dia batuk2 macam tak sihat. I pun check skali sbb selsema. Skali I yg ade demam panas. Dari nk ubat selsema tu, dapat berjenis2 ubat. Ari nie flat terus. Terus tak gi kerja. Type enty nie pun badan rase bergoyang2. Silap semalam tak mintak mc terus. Ingat ok, skali rase tak sihat jugak. Sat lagi kena pegi balik klinik tu.

Oh ya, petang nie ade buka puasa dgn Nuffnang Digiangels. Ingat kan tak dpt. Coz for sure beribu org nak kan? I saje je try. Skali org nuffnang call nk confirm my attendance. Harus gembira. Yang tak gembiranya skarang demam plak!!

This will be my first time bukak puasa single mingle. Hehehhe..

Actually got lots more things that make me sad. Let it be unspoken, sbb taknak menyinggung mana2 pihak. Kalau la mana2 pihak boleh nampak luka di hati ini, baru diorg mengerti kot... :(

LCCT-Alamanda-Felda Villa [310810]

We started our Merdeka day early. Me, hubs, Faruq and Farissa went to LCCT to send my Mak's maid Ria back to Medan. Sedih. Yes, I cried when I hugged her. Coz we all are really grateful to have such a wonderful maid that really take care Mak well.

Pernah one day, I went to Mak's house kt Ukay Bistari. That time, Mak and Ria were in the bathroom. Ria tgh mandikan Mak. I watched her carefully bathed my Mak with her smiley face. Syampukan Mak, sabun all over the body and cebokkan private part Mak without the yucky feelings langsung. Then, she wiped Mak and strongly put her in the wheel chair and pushed Mak back to her room.

Not only that, she sapu baby oil all over Mak's body and also minyak angin at Mak's leg. And pakaikan diaper/baju/kain. Then lastly combed her hair. With love and sincere. Boleh nampak.

Eventho Mak slalu jugak marah2 dia, she still cool. Tak melawan. Every night,, if Mak called her to massage her legs, pun dia bangun. Dia pun bkn type yg nk kluar2 tak tentu pasal. Dat's why kitorang dah anggap dia macam family.

Sedih coz she's back for good. Ye lah dah dua tahun dia kat sini. Kalau dia nak kerja lagi, I nak je dia kerja dgn I coz dia pandai jaga baby. And tak pandai nk kluar2 menggatal. Tu yg penting.

Ria yang tgh dukung Farissa

 Dari episode air mata, we moved to Alamanda pulak. Saje jalan beramai-ramai. Alamanda was full house. Pening mata tgk orang jek.

Then petang, we met again at Felda Villa for breaking fast session. Ok gak la buffet dia coz there are a lot of choices of food and people too. Pening la ramai2.

Lepas tu balik ke rumah dan tidurrr. Penat!

Dinner before puasa..

Tak ingat dah hari apa. But we were invited from Angah's family. Dia buat makan2 sikit. I adelah sangat malas nk masak nk bawak makanan, so singgah Big Apple to get this.

Donashi. Have u try this?

 Sedap gak Donashi coz dia tak heavy mcm sekeping donut. Tak muak la. Ade dua tiga yang dah hancur. -_- Si Faruq terpenyekkan on the way to Angah's place. Each donashi tastes different. Comel je buat macam sushi. Siap ade rupa telur ikan, raw salmon bagai.

Donashi and cupcakes

I sempat snap desserts je. Yang lenlain tak sempat. They grilled bbqs and few more food la. I can't recall. Lama betul terperuk dlm camera gambar nie.

The artistic cupcakes. Cantik sgt sampai sayang nk makan!

 

Oh the hiatus..

Sorry for the long silence. Ade je aral bila nk berblogging nie. Tak bwk camera la, bz la, macam macam hal.

Today cukup 100days Mak meninggal, and I'm still in the mourning mood. Nak2 dekat2 Raya nie. Langsugn tak rase happy. Haih.

By the way, hari nie smpai office 730 ya! Gigih. Banyak kerja plak lately nie. Before and after Raya. Lagi menambah2 kan mood malas nk beraya. Datang awal, office panas plak. The building air-cond baru nk on kot. Haih.

I tgh transfer gambar. Lepas nie sure korang muntah baca blog nie..Hehehe

Sat eh?