Rindu kat Mak & Abah.. :(

It's not easy to recover from surgery alone. Especially bila kita diarahkan banyak berehat, takleh buat kerja berat-berat, maximum weight yg boleh carry pon 3kg, no bending or twisting, must eat healthy food etc etc...

Today dah masuk 2 weeks after the surgery. Alhamdulillah, I'm recovering well, so far so good. Takut coz I stay alone at home, bimbang apa- apa terjadi, rindu kat budak dua orang yang kat babysitter tu, kesian kat hubs, dah la bz, kena jaga bini sakit lagi.. nk melayan emo bini lagi..

Last week, I still strong, malas nk fikir bukan-bukan.. fokus nak cepat sembuh je.. so the week went well.

Lagi hebat last 2 days, budak-budak stay dgn I kat rumah coz hubs bz bebeno nak hantar diorg. Tapi still I takleh renyah so today, I'm alone again.

Tadi, I just masak nasi, goreng tempe and telur sambal and ate with left over canned chicken curry. Kesian kan? :( Nak buat camne..

Just now tiba-tiba perut macam lapar nak munch-munch or terasa nk minum petang dgn kuih2 plak.. :( Memang takde sape nak layan pun.. suddenly I teringat kalau arwah Mak dgn Abah ada.. no doubt memang diorang akan teman I, jaga I masa sakit, take care of everything and make sure I makan yang best-best.

And I burst into tears.. :( Mak kalau sakit pon, dengar je anak dia nak makan sumting, sure bersusah payah bangun and masakkan. Rindunya kat Mak. Grateful sgt coz ade husband yang caring but still mana sama dgn kasih Mak dgn Abah ye tak?

Ya Allah rindu nya kat Mak dgn Abah.. recently banyak betul dugaan Allah nak bagi kt I. Sometimes rasa dah tak terbawak dah. Ya Allah, Kau permudahkan la segalanya. Amin :(

Roti khurasan

On Sunday, we went back to Muar to visit Makngah (hubs auntie). We spent a night there. Dah lama tak balik Muar. I feel so sad when we passed by the cemetery where Mak & Abah live now and also my house. I miss to stay there like before. Tak payah fikir apa2. How nice. :(
On Monday, we went to Pasar Lambak at Stadium area. I stumbled upon this stall selling Roti Khurasan. This was my late Abah's favourite food. I still remember the very last time he had Roti Khurasan. It was way back during my uni time. I was at home spending my weekends with Mak & Abah. Abah asked me to drive him to Pasar Malam nearby to get him the Roti Khurasan.He can drive but he couldn't walk too far as we had to park a bit far from the pasar malam area. I was so lazy, I declined his wish coz I really don't like the congested area there, and I just left the dining table and went to my room.
One hour passed by and I saw him walked into the house carrying few plastic bags full with food and also the Roti Khurasan. I felt so guilty that time but I just kept quiet. And me, Mak and Abah ate the food that he bought. I still remember the taste of Roti Khurasan. It was so yummy.
Oh, by the way, Roti Khurasan is actually a burger. The seller uses cooked minced meat with some spice inside the burger. The sauce and few slices of cucumber will be put inside too in the middle of the bread. Then, the burger will be wrapped by popiah skin and they will fry it. The specialty of Roti Khurasan is the sauce. It is homemade and a bit spicy.  And usually the sellers are some tabligh man or ar.qam if I'm not mistaken wearing white jubah and serban. But the one that we saw, is wearing normal baju melayu with songkok.
Hubs bought one piece to taste it. They usually fry upon request. So it will stay crunchy.

Frying Roti Khurasan

Close-up

I ate a bit, but I couldn't finish it. I miss Abah. I miss Mak. And I miss every moments spent with them. :(

Birthday Abah..

If he is still around, today is his birthday. He was born on 16 December 1925. Andif he's still here, he will be 85 years old. Quite old to be my Abah rite??

I was born when he was 55 years old, the same year he retired as a teacher. Mak pulak was 44 back then. Memang lots of different if compared to my schoolmates' parents yang way younger than them.

But, I'm so proud of them coz I have all the attention's that I need during that time while my friends' parents still have to work etc etc.

He was really proud coz he was the same age as Tun Mahathir. And I always used the reason, Tun still sihat, Abah mesti sihat to calm myself that I still have more time with him but I was wrong, :(

Back to 2005, he insisted me to get married as soon as possible. So, I pun ikut je la eventho that time still belajar tak abis, duit nak kawin pun takde. But, luckily, I fullfilled his request. He passed away on 26th May 2005.

He was the happiest man during my wedding day. Sampai nk amik gambar family pon dia taknak... coz bz melayan kawan2 dia yg datang. Tu rupanya petanda dia nk pergi on the same year.

To Abah, Happy birthday. Abah dah tambah dua cucu tau. Faruq dgn Farissa. Kalau Abah ade, mesti Abah org paling gembira tgk cucu2 Abah tu. Mesti Abah akan bagi nickname utk diorg mcm Abah bagi kt cucu2 Abah yg lain. And mesti Abah org yg paling kuat mengusik diorg.

Adek rindu Abah dgn Mak sangat2. :( Al-fatihah. Semoga roh Abah dan Mak dicucuri rahmat. Amin.

The very last pic before you left. :(