Rindu kat Mak & Abah.. :(

It's not easy to recover from surgery alone. Especially bila kita diarahkan banyak berehat, takleh buat kerja berat-berat, maximum weight yg boleh carry pon 3kg, no bending or twisting, must eat healthy food etc etc...

Today dah masuk 2 weeks after the surgery. Alhamdulillah, I'm recovering well, so far so good. Takut coz I stay alone at home, bimbang apa- apa terjadi, rindu kat budak dua orang yang kat babysitter tu, kesian kat hubs, dah la bz, kena jaga bini sakit lagi.. nk melayan emo bini lagi..

Last week, I still strong, malas nk fikir bukan-bukan.. fokus nak cepat sembuh je.. so the week went well.

Lagi hebat last 2 days, budak-budak stay dgn I kat rumah coz hubs bz bebeno nak hantar diorg. Tapi still I takleh renyah so today, I'm alone again.

Tadi, I just masak nasi, goreng tempe and telur sambal and ate with left over canned chicken curry. Kesian kan? :( Nak buat camne..

Just now tiba-tiba perut macam lapar nak munch-munch or terasa nk minum petang dgn kuih2 plak.. :( Memang takde sape nak layan pun.. suddenly I teringat kalau arwah Mak dgn Abah ada.. no doubt memang diorang akan teman I, jaga I masa sakit, take care of everything and make sure I makan yang best-best.

And I burst into tears.. :( Mak kalau sakit pon, dengar je anak dia nak makan sumting, sure bersusah payah bangun and masakkan. Rindunya kat Mak. Grateful sgt coz ade husband yang caring but still mana sama dgn kasih Mak dgn Abah ye tak?

Ya Allah rindu nya kat Mak dgn Abah.. recently banyak betul dugaan Allah nak bagi kt I. Sometimes rasa dah tak terbawak dah. Ya Allah, Kau permudahkan la segalanya. Amin :(

Sedih..

Hi peeps!!

How's the long weekend? Mesti penuh dgn aktiviti... Ada lagi sehari to enjoy.. I'm spending the day today.. batuk2 and tak sihat.. tak semena2... semlm was ok, I even went to open houses, and settling some chores.

Suddenly I feel so sad, bila tengok FB, semua ade geng2 and meet up again and again. I spent my Uni time to take care of my parents and takde masa sgt nk berkawan2. Ade few close friends like Dalila, Jey, Eileen etc but we hardly meet up. Jey is in Aussie, Eileen is in Penang and Dalila dekat je.. but agaknya my fate is like that. Kalau nk meet up ade je aral melintang.. And I got few close friends at WK, Wana, Fiza etc.. pun susah sgt kalau nk jumpa coz of work and ade saje la..

Kat office pun sama, my nature of work avoiding me from berkawan2.. coz nanti conflict of interests. Macam2 la..bila baru nak rapat, either me or my friends resigned or kena pindah etc..

I'm not regret taking care of Mak n Abah.. they are my source of happiness even until now. Whenever I feel sad, I mesti recall back the memories with them. And I smile. But the fact that I can never be with them again makes a huge hole in my heart. :(