Tinggal kenangan.. sob..sob..

I miss my pumping session, but everything dah over. Production dah ok, during final weeks of my confinement, then mak meninggal, stress. So, susu takmo kluar. Then, start keje, stress lagi nk adapt balik new environment. Bila dah ok, production ok la. Dapat dlm 3-4oz every session.

Then I demam teruk, so stop 3 weeks dah till today. Dah tade rase2 engorged sumer. Farissa pun dh refused to latch. Mengaruk minah tu I paksa2.

So macam kena stop smpai sini kah? Or patut I amik hormone pill from doctor? Bahaya tak? Ade sapa? pernah amik? I heard Rebecca Nur Islam, one of local artist amik pill nie utk BF anak angkat dia. Bagus kan?

Kat nursing room office

Ni kat surau office.

Hasil pumping kt rumah

Rasa sedih..

Dunno why, I feed a bit sad for a few reasons...

1) Raya. I can't imagine raya without Mak & Abah. To be honest, I dun feel like celebrating hari Raya. Malas. I know it's not fair for mr hubs, but I'm not comfortable spending my Raya at his side. Eventho, we come from same state and district, the feels is totally different. Malas nk elaborate more, but I mmg tak selesa.

I just want to celebrate my Raya with visiting Mak and Abah's grave in the morning and push back to KL coz nothing left for me there. There's nothing can make me happy.

2) Nak Raya Mana dilemma. Seeshh.. I hate it! Eventho yeah, my house and mr hub's aunty's house is quite nearby (about 15mins drive), believe me, lagi susah! Lagi better sorang utara, sorang selatan kot. As for me, definitely I prefer to spend my Raya days in my own house. Selesa, got my own room, ade few toilets, kipas banyak tu yang paling penting. It is differs kat rumah Makngah (mr hubs's aunty). I bukan nk merungut. But a LOT of ppl with ony one ceiling fan and one toilet (toilet and bathroom attached together) are not a nice and comfy place to stay with babies. Sangat! Ke I yang mengada. I hate the feeling to be the eldest in family and prefer to be the youngest as I am. Paham tak? Hubs is the eldest dlm family, so I hate to pretend sooo behave and rajin giler nk menolong kat dapur. I love being myself ,where I takpayah pretend baik bebeno. Gitulah..

3)My Mak's maid, Ria dah nak balik kampung, and I dun think she wanna come back here. Susah nk cari maid yang sanggup nk mandikan, bersihkan Mak, sikatkan rambut Mak, siap sapukan lotion kat Mak, malam2 bangun urutkan kaki Mak, with all smiley face. Tak pernah merungut, eventho Mak slalu jugak marah2 dia. Memang she's not really a perfect maid. What do you want to expect, she's the youngest in her family, ade diploma in acc, speaks English well. Tak pernah buat kerja rumah b4 this, but managed to take care my Mak dgn baik and ikhlas.

I offer gak dia kerja dgn I if, she wanna come back here, but tatau la macam mana.. :(

I hope I can send her back kat airport nanti. Hmm..

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah. I just got sms from my sis, Ucu telling that, Ateh has safely undergone the surgery and he's doing good. Now dalam CCU, recovery ward.

Hope for the speedy recovery. Amin.

Ateh in OT now

My 3rd bro, Ateh is now in OT, IJN. Buat bypass due to heart blocked. Harap2 semuanya ok.

Semoga segala2nya dipermudahkan. Amin.

He's a GPK in one of Ampang secondary school. Lupa nama sekolah tu. Very funny and when it comes to borak, he's number one. Ade je citer and ade je bahan2 nk citer. And he's a good cook too. I ade citer kt sini rasanya.

He's the rightest.

Tiga2 bro pun ade sakit jantung. Keturunan. -_-

Oh ye, I dgn my siblings (except twin sis, Ata) mmg jauh gap. Me and my late sis (yg nie eldest) beza 30years. Imagine that?

But I really like having the long years gap between us, they all matured and byk la lagi benefits having them as my siblings. I am really proud of them. :)

Selamba..

I was so tired after went back from office yesterday. But, little Farissa won't allow me not even sit. Mengaruk. -_- I think it's because of her blocked nose. Sgt penat. Sikit lagi nk mengaruk mama dia nie.

Luckily mr hubs arrived. So dia melayan Farissa until dia tertidur.

So I cepat2 tutup mata, nk catch some sleep la konon. Tgk2 mr hubs pun tertidor. Tinggal Faruq je duk leka main games. Dia tu memang. Bagi games, senyap la. Bila I terjaga, it was alredy 645pm and it was raining heavily. Selamba je tidur.

Kelam kabut cari makanan kt dapur. Tot of making jemput2, tgk2 tepung plak penuh kutu. Hish. So, I quickly made 2 mugs of nescafe and bukak kuih raya yg dh diorder for our break fast. Hahaha. Ok gak. Macam selesa. Then sembahyang maghrib. Kalau kat luar mcm kelam kabut.

When the raining dah almost stopped, we went to nearby Vichudda. Pun selesa sbb the rest of customers already finishing their food. So order pun tak lama la.

Before balik kerja, me and mr hubs bz texting each other. Konon nk buka puasa kt Tesco la, Giant la, coz we need to do some groceries shopping too. Apa pun tak jadik. Blh plak tidur dgn selamba and plan bertukar like with the blink of eyes. Bagus jugak coz time tu pun dh pukul berapa. Mana sempat nk shopping bagai.

And as usual Farissa buat bisnes kt Vichudda. We only realized it, when we arrived at clinic nearby. Farissa and Faruq skali check. Faruq biasa la on and off flu, fever dgn allergic apa tah bawah bibir dia. Berkudis. Then dia asyik dok kopek2. Mmg patut pun bwk, coz Farissa pun mmg ade demam. At first mr hubs thought of not taking them to clinic but I insisted. Tgk? Naluri seorg ibu kan? Tahu je anak2 tak sihat sumer.

As for today, both nampak dh ok. But I plak bangun lewat. Mmg takleh la tidur after sahur. Guarantee lewat. Oh we had roti with sausage, cheese and telur mata for sahur. Sedap!

Today's plan mcm tak tau lagi. Hujan2 malas nk berjalan. Lately nie hujan ribut. Takut nk bawak budak2 tu kluar. Mak budak nie lebih2 takut. -_-

Nak citer pasal Home and Livin' Fair, lupa plak nk bawak camera. Bongoks.

Ok later sambung..papai...

Baru sampai..

Baru je sampai (kul 11 lebih tadi) from Home and Living Fair kat PWTC. Penat nak mam. Sib baik mr hubs berjaya bribed I dgn buffet kt Riverside, PWTC, weighing scale baru, mesin air Coway.. (ni nanti citer) and slimming legging. Blh plak kt H&LF ade jual legging ye? Wife sapa le nie, kena bribe BANYAK sikit, terus zip mulutnya..

Budak2 dua org tu dah terbongkang tidur. Sian diorg penat giler jalan. Muka mama dia pun dah masam manis dah tadi. Hahahha..Sib baik Sales Manager Coway tu hensem. :D Ekekeke..

Esok la saya story lagi. Penat tul. Ni tgh tunggu mr hubs tapau kan roti canai utk sahur. Lps makan nanti nk tidur. Malas nk bgn kul 5. Dah le kena gi awal esok. Pengsan.

Ok yek.. Nak main games japs..Paiii...

Puasa Day #1

I cooked some dish before I went to bed yesterday. Managed to cook sambal sardin and buncis goreng.
I woke up at 450am to heat up the lauk and goreng telur mata. Si kecik Farissa pun sibuk nk bersahur. Buntang mata tgk kitorg makan.

Sampai office about 7.55am and I was really busy. Tak sempat nk buat apa.

Just now we went to Param at Putra Perdana. Tak berapa nk best but boleh la. Since mr hubs dh bg green lite to cook only for sahur. So berbuka beli je pape. I lagi suka..Hehehe...

So I buka makan laksa utara while mr hubs makan nasik ambang.

Ni tiba2 batuk plak. Berjangkit kt office la nie. Ramai yg sakit tp gigih dtg kerja jugak!!

Oh tiba2 I mcm annoyed gila kat Param tadi. Ade sorg budak kecik tu. Kena chicken pox!! But parents still bwk lagi ke tempat awam camtu. Dah la kitorg tagged Farissa and Faruq along. Bodo kn diorg nie... Harap2 la tak berjangkit kt diorg..