Denial mode

Am in my mum's house at Ukay Bistari. I still can feel her here. Entering her room makes me feel closer to her. The smell, the room is still the same, except her bed was taken back by Tan Sri for his SIL. His SIL kena cancer just like Puan Sri. Takpe lah, at least the bed mmg berguna. Tak sempat nk belikan mak recliner bed. :(

Should I blame Faruq coz he was sick at the same time with Mak? I didn't have time to visit and take care of her.

Should I blame my husband coz after we got married, I didn't have much time to spend with Mak?

Should I blame myself, coz too pampered, so I didnt go to hospital the very last monday before Mak passed away?

Should I blame Ucu, coz she didn't call me at the very single minute before Mak left us? I didn't have the chance to seek her forgiveness and say goodbye. :(

Mak, Adek rindu Mak.